Dipped in Bitch Sprinkles

Yup - my hat says “Dipped in Bitch Sprinkles!”  I saw this and immediately my spirit was like “Yes, we need that hat!!!”  Instinctively, I just walked up to the cash register and bought without even thinking twice.  

I was feeling a little fired up from walking into a restaurant and...wait for it...they didn’t mask shame and force me to put a diaper on my face just to walk in.  So, that was rad & inspiring after a very long year of mask shaming at every level.    

But, I think it’s actually deeper than that.  I think this hat is a culmination of what 2020 has created in me - and it’s a good thing that I’m not embarrassed about or ashamed of or feeling like I need to go and repent somewhere.  

Quite the opposite - this hat represents that Jesus took me & my family through one of the most difficult years of our lives - I’d actually say the most difficult to date (I’m not looking for any competition from my future years).  

This hat represents that after everything that we walked through, ran through, drudged through, Army-freaking belly crawled through, that today I hold my high with greater confidence in myself & our future than ever before.  

Why?  It doesn’t make sense.  

The business that was supposed to be crushing in by December 2020 is most definitely still in building mode.  I still have many hours, days, weeks where the loss of my sister just seems like more than I can handle.  The damn election certainly didn’t go how I had hoped.  And Walmart...oh Walmart - I just can’t anymore with you.  

Here’s the thing. Through all of that, I didn’t give up.  I didn’t quit on me.  I didn’t quit on business.  I didn’t quit on deciding to be a happy mom no matter what was happening in the world around us (not always perfect here, but as best I could).  I didn’t quit being a loving wife.  I didn’t quit being a caring daughter.  I didn’t quit being a pain in the ass little sister.  I just kept on walking.  Just one foot in front of the other.  

Some days it wasn’t even that.  It was just don’t go too many steps backward.  Just stand right here and don’t let the pressure push you back.  

Well, let me tell you, I don’t have victory in every area yet.  But, what I do have is the confidence to know that I can stand up to some major shit and not let it throw me around, tossed about in the waves with no anchor.  

And guess what?!?  That feeling brings some confidence.  It brings a little “don’t mess with me anymore devil” kinda chip on the shoulder.  Dipped in Bitch Sprinkles kinda mojo.  

So, the hat is a little immature.  Probably not very Christian.  Anyone triggered by the hat can just unfollow me now because this is my new vibe.  

I’m not giving up on the dreams in my heart.  I’m not quitting just because it was one hell of a year.  I’m not backing down and submitting to an overbearing, power-hungry government that quit looking at science of any form way back in March 2020.  I’m just not.  

By the way - before anyone gets all spiritual on this - I am not, for the record, bitter, angry, or filled with hate.  I have done all kinds of work with Jesus on forgiving, letting go, asking for forgiveness when fear & worry crept in, surrendering my heart & every area of life to Him.  

I have the incredible gift of the deepest peace and joy I could ever imagine, even in the midst of the challenges.  

This woman right here has been dipped in bitch sprinkles & I ain’t afraid to show...show it...show it.  

So, when you see my shoulders pulled back a little further.  When you see my boldness make some folks uncomfortable.  When you see me continue to press into business like never before.  Then you can know that it isn’t some fake, pretend, acting like I’ve been through some stuff - like maybe a broken nail or a mean IG comment.  

NO - I earned this hat with a whole lot of tears, and sweat, and sleepless nights, and uncertainty of the future, and maybe a few too many days lost in conspiracy theory videos (not totally proud of that, but it’s real stuff).  

This is the new Kristie Lemauga & I hope you love her & I hope you can handle her.  Just dipped in all kinds of bitch sprinkles & couldn’t be more proud of it!!!  

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